Acceptance

Today I reached a level of acceptance. For quite some time now I've been feeling exhausted running...

In truth, something has not been quite right since post-Yungfrau marathon last year. I've most certainly been over-training, and using running to deal with things in my life that were particularly challenging. However, that is no excuse for letting my body become so knackered.

As Einstein insighted: insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I'd rest a few days, then get straight back into a hard training program and just break again. Most recently at Zegama severe calf strain and cramp in my peroneals resulted in having to pull out of the race.

Insanely I returned from Zegama and after a few days rest decided I'd get up to Skye and work the ridge. Yet my body was relenting. So today I decided to test things by heading up onto Crib Goch.

My legs were empty and I could not run the uphills. On reaching the ridge my peroneals failed me again and it was blatantly apparent that the stability they provide when functioning properly is crucial for ridge running!

I sat on the ridge and had a think. It was beautiful up there, and a sense of calm realisation that things needed to change settled on me. So now it's time to fix this problem, give myself a break and look after myself more. I felt a sense of worth in testing the grip of my modified shoes on the rock (they were fab! - I'll post info on them soon) and decided to be a bit human for a while - sort the many things in my life that need sorting (selling my house, moving into a new place etc) and recover to hopefully come back stronger.